Ma Aug 2015.

 This Aug is a roller coaster ride for me..

A lot happen..

So I didn't rly update much wif photos..

and in its place is jus words of frustration..sadness..nervous..happy..

So now..things seem to have settledwn abit fr me..

So back wif photos taken this mth..

 Every wkend de sunset that always greets me as I went out..

Somehow...heighten my spirits..

 And I went chocomark fr the vry first time since mths ago..

I think I am waiting fr yh to meet ltr or sumthing..

nt vry sure..since it has been wks alr..

 The starbucks me n yh went after she came back frm her hk trip..

2secondtime..I went to airport wait ppl..ahaahahahah

then talk a lot..and then went ntuc ther fr some shopping fr tmy surprise party stuff..

 met up the vry nex day..

went ntuc tgt fr gocery shopping at sunplaza ntuc..

Hmm..had to thanks wmzyj..

cause gg shopping at ntuc n buying it hm to prepare a meal..

is actually wat I had never experience yrs alr..

And I had always imagine what is it like doing so nex time..

bt this time rly fulfil my dream..

and this dream is mre realistic as it is the ntuc at sunplaza and nt other places..

And I get to choose n buy wat I want to eat fr a long time..

bt since my mum dun cook anymre..

rly rly happy ^^

got chance lets go agn

 and also waiting bus at semb interchange wif friends n nt my mum..

is also a rly new experience fr me..

I will rmb this as long as it would last.

 Also preparing the cake..and dishes fr steamboat..

nagging at ea other

laughing at ea other

chatting at ea other..

rly is fun.

 Due to me..

strawberry cake is made ahahahah..

I rly like strawberry shortcake..

 

 fooling ard wif the selfie stick after we are done wif everything n waiting fr tmy..

fisrt time using it and didn't know it is quite heavy actually..

 managed to surprise tmy wif cake n steamboat dinner..

 

  Played card game n drinking game at fmh room..

had been a long time since I played wif cards..

had fun too..shouting screaming laughing clapping framing

ahahah

 and it was me who left first as I am cinderalla..

dad is calling me home :(

 then gt back my results after tmy bdae party..

3 failed 2 passed..what I had expected..

angry disappointed sad bewildered scared..

all kinds of feelings rushing through my mind n heart everyday..

thinked of what I am gg to do..then I told my mum abt my result..

n lied to my dad that I passed all..

getting guilty..nervous..cried in the car..htht wif my mum..

days passes as things passes too..

and no time to rest..

nex up is my bro grad...

collecting of robe..getting rly sad when I hear wat my dad n bro want of me..

ironing bro robe fr him..and after setting it up at his wardrobe..i jus sat dwn n stare at it fr along time..

mixed feelings..

like ah..time rly pass so fast my bro is nw out of army n a uni grad..

ah will I ever be able to wear this n make my fam proud of me?

 then no mre time to waste..the day of grad ceremony came..

n we attending it..taking photos..

Somehow my memory n time seem to have paused at after my bro grad frm poly..

after tat all the things tat happens seem unreal to me..

like a big fast forward n here we are 2015 alr..

 though bz n a lot things happen everyday..

I still contd doing my hobbies..while I am still able to afford some time into it..

sketching is one of it..

tried to sketch sehun..bt still dosnt look like him...I will edit agn nex time..

singing is also my hobby..

bt I dun seem to improved at all..

bt I jus enjoyed recording my singing and listening to it whether it is acceptable or nt..

even bought a mic..

reading n cutting mag is my hobby too..

still had somemre mag to clear...

drama so far..i cleared alr..

then nex shld be my ssce alr..

chossing of modules..my resits plus new modules..

tthen sch start then paid money..

 cried agn talking wif my unifriend...wher she oso fail 3 module n she is transferring to rmit alr nex jan intake..she ask me to join her..bt I said I wanted uol still.

If I went rmit...I rly dunno hw to face my fam in future..

using other ppl money is rly mind blowing..

the responsibility u need to have after ppl invest their money in you..

hiax...

life had to continue even if the front is pitch black rite..?

 So this is a conclusion what n how my aug 2015 had been..

rly I can alr hear santa claus nearing alr..

yr end as expected gives off a sad feeling somehow..

bt I still like yr end better than yr start..

it is sad bt heartwarming n sort of romantic isn't it?

Anyway..till next time again ^^