Autumn Gala 2017

 So sat after working half day i went hm change and 4.30pm wemt to this autmn gala at big box..

Didnt know this event is so big de event.

Got 300 tables lol

Like an official conapny d&d like tat..

The songs dance all is my mum see le oso dun lky kind of traditional thing

Dk hw i survive.

4 Months as a Perm

Finally make some time to do my mask pack

Suppose to be once per wk bt i was too bz

That i missed last wk..

Hav to be gd to my face

As now everyday so unhealthy lifestyle

Lilhrs of slp plus heavy workload

..

So far i had worked as a perm for 4 mths alr

Got unhappy n happy feelings thoroughout

But times rly flies nomatter you are happy or sad

Still rmb the time when i jus ended exams in may

And was bz sending resumes

Finding job to prep myself to quit sch n come out work life.

Then after 2wk no news and attend some interviews..

Beginning to lose hope and suddenly

Land one interview and the nex day start working

As a perm n is direct employment

Then everyday oso is a challenge to me

Everyday go hm oso screaming in my heart i wan to quit i wan to quit

I wan die le i wan die le

Then colleague suddenly say she last day

N i was rly sad

Then the vry nex thing is i get confirmation

Then rly stress as left me alone only..

And so many things due..

N i dk my stuff yet..

But can feel my boss trying to be mre patient wif me sonce i am the only one surbordinate left..

Cant bring myself to quit...

Then 2wk pass by...

A new hr girl came in

She is rly tall like kwangsoo n me is haha

Then dun rly like her at first n find that we dun clique well 

Think that our combi weird weird too..

Till now is 2nd wk wif her le..

Totally bff liao...

Rly thanks her presence making me mre daring n outgoing as i am nt alone.

Make me braver.

And this 2 wks is fun..

Hmmp or i can say is overall mre fun than unhappy..

Cos this 2wks fr me rly like roller coaster vry happy one sec then another sec so sian kip do wrong thing n kena scolded.

My boss even say when i ask u smth i wan a definite answer hor not hmm..shld be...i thinkso..

So stress.

Then i feel abit pissed off as well

Cos smth is done by her wrong n she kip confronting me.

Then i buaytahan say is you do de not me.

Then she say then is my fault la..

Then wat?! I only wan u to stop acting like i am he one who do wrong mah.

Nv say is u shld undo the wrong n make it roght.

I can redo fr u bt u shldnt blame it on me mah

I rly dun care she who le. Jus say outright is u

Lol..

I now jus is like dun too rely on my new colleague 

Dw to feel hesrtbreak n hlpless agn

Frm now onward i am gg to think she is part time and will be leaving 2wks ltr.

I am gooin to kip this mentality till she get confirmed.

Now is like think of a person part time here at hr hlping me

At least hlpe dao my sep payroll..

If nt only me..

Heng sia rly.

If nt i think i sat not only nid to work till 11pm..bt sun oso nid go back work toll 11pm

Have to thanks jingyi as well

Fr coming back on sat to hlp us.

Now finally oct...

One mre mth then i can relax. 

Nov gg overseas 

Short trip to rest. Then jou awaitng xmas le

Then hav to rly think about whether i am leaving this job anot.

To focus on my studies.

Or can afford to work till feb.

Chiong fr my bonus

See hw bah

So this is a vry long update fr this past 4 mths..

Thats y u can see i nv post as frequently as before after i started working.

Nt i dw..

Bt everyday 24hrs is nt enuf fr me srsly..

If got extra one min i also wan used it fr slpping

Rly tired..

Rly looking fwd to tml meeting yh

And frinite meeting wmzy minus fmh

Then sat me alone work half day at office

Whole office is mine

Muahahah

Bt sat nite nid attend company dinner event 

Sian max

1st wk of uni yr 4.

Feel weird gg back to uni fr lesson
N bombarded by lots of work stuff recently
It has been crazy these days..
These wk esp..wif uni lectures starting and payroll wif corrupted sytem n addon internal war..
N plus ongoing requests frm all over
I wan to gcry bt no tears came out
I wan to shout bt no time to even breathe.
I dun wanna giv up
I wan to be as bz n as tired as possible like my idols wannaone
Always working hard day and nite.
I wan to work till ny body die dwn.
I can i can..
Hwaiting..
Tml is sat
8am til..?
11pm i predict.
Let u noe tml the ans ahahag
See ya on sun..
Hwaiting..
N now i suddenly rmb i haven ate my dinner yet...
Dun care le..
Gonna slp n prep fr tml.
Bye

Spoilt my wkend!

This time ard..
Me ,mum,bro quarrel agn...
No is me alone who quarrel with them
Over our return flight..
I wan an earlier flight and reach hm 12midnite..
Bt bro n mum wants 2am reach sg..
Actually is a small issue n they jus nid to talk to me n i will chanhe my mind..
But what makes me mre angry is me alone talk behind them abt i wan that earlier flight n both of them treat me as invisible and that bro jus says..i dun care about her..so mum we choose the later flight and let her return first..
We stay at hk shop..
Ok fine since u all oso nv see me as a part of you then why shld i go to hk wif u all..
Waste my time n money..
Vry angry and i shouted..fine!! U all go hk i dw go i go korea wif my friend!
Then i shut my door rm and called my friend
She manage to calm me dwn n make me reflect..
Went home and actually decide to talk it out wif them and giv way to them..
Bt my mum still better got try talk to me..
Bt that stupid bro then say dun care abt her la..i own her one meh..
Then my anger blows up once agn
Ok..then i endure till dinner...we went out four of us..
But i rly cant take it anymore..
Facing them eating tgt make me lose my appetite..
So i jus ate one bowl green bean soup and said i full alr i gg hm and left wif them dumbfounded..
I noe i vry rude..
Bt i alr vry gd at enduring alr..
If i rly bad, i will literally tell my dad in front of them that i dw go hk..i gg korea wif my friend.. i gonna blurt out everything and see hw both of them handle this mess!
I am gonna gov them one wk..if still treat me invisible and do nth i will confront them so hw stick to my timing or your timing.
Not gonna sit back and do nth frm nw on..
My bro always treats me like lowly ppl..
Jzus because i scare of insect had to beg him to catch and scare to order or talk to ppl then nid beg him hlp me all these yrs..
And he always steps on my head!
So tired alr!
Yes u nv own me anything...bt does i own u anything?
Since young u alr dun lky me then why dun kill me.
Hate him hate this ppl!
This time i rly..deleted my bro contact frm my phone
And i nv memo his number
I am so so enuf of him

4Sep

So my one and only colleague suddenly say
She not coming anymore..
Never felt so betrayed.
Tears dun even come out now..
Felt like running away bt
My mind n body n everything says NO
Calista ar...jiayou