Self care day

This wkend was rly free

Wanted to Jio my friend out

But all was busy

So I went to make my Sunday into a self care day

Went to hair dye, treatment my hair at harts salon costs me $450 as I was so "lucky" to get a director as my stylist and endup paying more for her haircut lol!

But ok la, since I going for every 4 mths. 

Can split the price across the mths

And then facial treatment at kskin costs me $50

Ended my day feeling happy n satisfied 

I am ready for the next new wk of work!

Pay day on Friday, all the more happier!

Dinner Dates

All the meals I had with cmb dates, ladies n guys

Missed 2 meals which I frgt to take photo🤣🤣

Rly feel like my life is a roller coaster

Doing things that the me in the past confirm won't do and won't even think of it at all

Kudos to myself from being brave to step out of my comfort zone

To expand my friend circle.

Esp me being introvert and being scammed before from tinder

 

Song Recommendations

Recently, went on a date with a guy that i met on cmb

He ask me go to a free admission live show sponsor by FM933

they invited some local singer from singapore to sing

Felt like boring to me at first as i am a kpop n jpop fan.

lost touch with SG artists long ago

End up discover some rly nice song that was sung by them.

Enjoy the short an hour and a half show.

and best thing is no need keep talking mah. and think of topics to continue the convo

not awkward totally. 

Felt like sharing to you guys here.

Need to become the sky for my mum

Today rly felt my mum is back to being a kid

And me being her mum

So right in the morning she go and remove a pimple on the area right below her nose and above her mouth 

Then it bled and cannot seem to stop and she began screaming my name continuously 

Asking me how how how, need go hospital?

Then I faster help her use tissue to stop the bleeding and ask her to hold on to it

But she is worry and keep on removing it and using new tissues to wipe of the blood coming out

And lastly go use powder to dab on it

And her whole mouth n nose became white

I rly rolled my eyes at her method to stop the bleeding

And she went to wash her face later and the bleed began again.

Then she get scared and called me again.

I faster scold her and ask her follow my method to stop bleeding n ask her remain calm

Not like it is alot blood.

Then suddenly, the washing machine that was washing clothes suddenly jerk violetnyl in the kitchen and my mum scream again.

So the whole afternoon I am trying to calm her and help her settle everything.

Stop her bleeding, monitor her stop wiping n moving, make her calm down, chk up on the washing machine, taking out the clothes and hand wash and hang it up to dry and call the service ppl.

Suddenly feel that my mum is rly unlike the past

She get scared easily and highly depends on me.

Can u imagine if I am not at hm tdy?

What is she gonna do.

Rly feel like I need to grow up faster to protect her more in future.

Esp when my dad is useless also.

Only add on problem n not solve it

And my bro is not living wif us anymore.

CMB

So I tried something rly new in my life

An dating app called CMB

After my incident with Tinder 2yr back

Finally recovered and get over it

Started to try make new friend regardless of girl or boys

Matching online

Chatting online

Before the next step meeting real life

Never in my whole life I ever tried meeting my online friend

And it rly rly is another thing off my bucket list

Damn epic

So last Monday, first met up with a lady

Had a 3hrs dinnertime chatting at Westgate

And then yesterday nite 1 guy at Plaza Sing Muji cafe

And straight today afternoon Somerset kebuke bbt as well as  din Tai Fung

And I am already batt low till critical levels

I am socially detach person

But I am glad I rly made the effort to step out of my comfort zone to do something that I always think of bt nv done before.

Rly find myself getting mre n more mature and more n more not the past me anymore

Rly mre n mre brave now I can say

Tats rly crazy esp when today's guy that I met up jus hold on my hand, hug me and oat my on the head.

I jus stayed frozen on the spot

Damn epic moment.

Mayb I guess my friends are right,

It is not that I don't hv the market

It is jus tat I dunwan to be on sale in this market

I want and prefer to be single 

Ahahahha

But love aside.

I rly hope can have additional travel buddy

When my that friend now like so busy to travel wif me le.

I will contd try my best

After the ordeal this wk

I guess I will stop playing and focus my search fr my travel buddy to jus ladies

I realise all guys in the app are looking fr gf

Which I am not suitable and not interested 

Ahahahah.

Tues nite another ladies nite!

Jiayou calcal!

Lowest of the lowest weight

 Crazy crazy

I literally screamed out when I see my weight this morning

Stop at 47 no matter how I diet and exercise

After 1yr exactly

Miracle suddenly hit me

BMI 18.8

Cool!

Bmi is reaches 18.5 then I am considered underweight

So healthy diet health weigh happy cal!

Went to see Kel's baby girl

Finally went to see this lil one who is jus almost a month old. Frgt how to spell

But pronounce as Ray-chelle? Ahahah

My poor memory.

Took me few yrs to finally rmb the names of all the kids of wmzyj

And now out a new one and another one coming nex mth lol

Mikaier, reina, eleora, Ray-chelle and soon to come lol

Since all wmzyj rly bz, and schedules don't match

I jus buy some gift (birdnest, wet tissue, babywash ) and visited kel at her bto flat

Spend ard 3hrs there before I went back

She is rly cute~~ 

Can't wait to her her again on 24th.

 

Irony

So jus 2wks ago, I am being sensitive

And lashes out at my friends and blame them fr being too busy

And left me out.

So I reflected on myself

And try to make new friends using CMB

And jus after 2 wks

I am tired from all the replies daily and

Still need go reply all the chats daily

Suddenly feel like I am now standing in my friend's position

So many chats how to find energy and time to reply every single chat simultaneously sia

I feel like throwing my phone away as it keep vibrating.

I need some lone time to settle my work and my me time after work.

Rly irony me

I feel like beating myself up.

And funniest thing is I even find the courage to real life meet them. 

Met one lady last Monday.

And this wk, Fri and sat and then nex tues

Girls n boys all

I already feel tired but I wanted to push myself to my limits 

So that I no time to pester and disturb my that grp of close friends ' life and hurt them always with my words.

I also feel bad sticking like a glue to them and hanging on to them like a koala bear

Being a burden to them when they are rly busy wif their own work ,life and families.

Main objective is finding new travel buddy.

But easier than talk.

So far, mostly is don't match with my channel kind.

Not mature enuf, 没有上进心,playing playing kind.

If not is different  interests and hobbies and travel styles.

I think I so far had connected with 20ppl? And now remaining 7active chats?

Tiringgg.

Jiayou!

Mrt train fault

Today was a really lucky day for me

Last min arrange a dinner meetup with a friend that I met online a wk ago.

So I normally OT till 8plus. But cos of dinner appts today. 

I decided to leave on time 5.45pm and dinner gg to be at JE

And ard 5.15pm, frm my office windows I can see the skies damn dark.

I was like oh no 30mre mins 

Plsssss don't rain

My office lobby out to bustop is jus a 20seconds journey without shelter, I don't want take out my umbrella jus fr that 20s and need to have a wet umbrella in my bag for hoursss..

So 5.45 sharp I literally run out of office to bustop and the bus came almost simultaneously so I hop on all the way to commonwealth mrt. Then rain started to fall

Then after reaching JE, I bid farewell to my colleague who lived in woodlands.

And suddenly I notice when platform Soo crowd and the atmosphere is slightly diff today.

So I exited the platform and going out towards the gantry at JEM side. The crowd is rly crazy.

I am like mayb I seldom this timing at outside. So not sure to the crowd

As I normally leave office 8plus, mrt ,busstops, streets are basically empty ahahah

Then end up I shopping inside ntuc while waiting for my online friend to reach and my colleague msg me

NSL yew tee to wdlands no svc, luckily I tdy meet fren

I then go see the news. Machiam rly sia.

Damn lucky.

Then meetup wif my online fren dinner and chat till 9plus almost 10pm then we bid farewell

Then my colleague watsapp me, she literally 8plus then reach home when we bid farewell at JE mrt at 6.20pm lol!!

2hrs. She msg me to grab hm instead. Then I 9plus almost 10 then saw her msg and I replied. Now shld be ok le bah? Ahahahah 

So I took the mrt home. Smooth and totally not waiting, no crowd

Srsly thinking back today, rly thankful to everything that blessed me to avoid the rain and crowd and train fault 

June seems to be good as I had a gd start🤣🤣🤣