Woke up this morning at ard 8plus when I felt slight discomfort in my throat.
So immediately knew I am gonna be down wif a sore throat once agn after some time lol..
Was rly amazed when I jus on my handphone and saw yh msg to me that she is oso dwn wif sore throat lol..
Didn't tell her abt myself cos I cant believe in the coincidence as well so yea.
As expected, my throat flare up as time passes..
bt I jus kept drowning myself in plain water at my home lol..
I can endure the pain as usual.
But I think yuhui's case seems to be much mre serious than me haha..
She msg me agn ard evening saying she dwn wif flu as well.
poor kid. And I cant believe she is thinking of our mon meeting after she was sick.
Cause it is nt impt at all.
Afterall we could meetup anytime de provided she is nt caught up in her sch stuff.
Anyway.. shall share another thing I felt tdy.
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Sometimes,i rly dunno why friends ard me say I am close wif my brother.
Cause I rly feel that sometime I rly dun seem to know this person standing in front of me,
Living wif me, slping at the room across mine.
Someone I see everyday.
His thinking and mine are worlds apart.
His way of doin things and mine are worlds apart.
It make me think are we rly siblings? somebody related?
I wun miss him if I dun see him all day..i guess he is like tat too..
We can dun speak to ea other everyday unless necessary.
Sometimes we will hav ill feelings n misunderstandings caused by my mum..
and he will speak ill things to me. Or when nth happen, bt mum happen to scold him bt he jus pull me into the picture and divert mum attention to scolding me instead of him.
Once or twice I can take it in my stride.
But nt when it happen all the time.
It make me ponder whether wat am I to him? family or jus a burden or worst someone he hates n wanted to get rid of.
Sometimes I jus dun wanna explain myself or express my feelings to him as I know it wun hlp wif anything.
Some time ago I heard him chatting wif mum and he suddenly say family is most impt. bt am I excluded?
Why sometimes I jus feel so out of place in my family. like I am an outsider.
my food preferences is so diff frm the three of them. My thinking. My character.
I am jus someone who is not ambitious n jus crave fr freedom n a stable life.
Bt he has a totally diff personality frm me.
I of course dun hate him, In fact I am rly thankful he was born too in this family if nt I rly cant live in this family wif my dad le.
But sometimes my bro will hlp me wif lots of things though I hav to beg n praise him lol..
and he will go ahead n do it wif grumbling.
So I rly dunno are we close? am I included into the family line he is saying? or is he jus doing fr the sake of doing.
I am definitely not emo ing~ here agn hah..jus wanna type my feelings n thoughts here as I had no one to share wif.
Now thinking of it my family like have seen me crying fr less than 5times in this past 21 yrs sia.
Cos I normally like to cry alone. I rly cant stand them watching me cry as after tat it is rly such an awkward moment between us if we see ea other agn after crying
Actually I tend to frgt things that happen to me sia.
I mean I cn rmb the whole event bt not the details.
Like now I rmb one time I rly breakdown and ran into my room slam my door and throwing everything to the ground and cry until I fell to the ground and kip asking god to take me go. bt I cant seems to rmb what happen that make me cried to this crazy extent.
Dunno whether this is a gd thing or wat.
lol..grrr...bt I cant stand it!! I need to recall this sia..dun like the fact that something kips bugging me..
wow! thought I will jus write a little here tdy..
Now looking up..it was such a looonnnnggggg poostt omg...shall end here le fr tdy.
To be contd! lol
