Random thoughts

Recently one of my longtime friend gave birth. As she is covid positive

She needs to be alone at hospital isolated and give birth alone.

Rly makes me feel so sad for her.

As it was her first birth and I can imagine how scare she would be when she is all alone for that few days.

So proud of her that she went through it bravely and everything was fine and her baby was tested negative.

Really feel like all my same aged friends rly have all matured and grown into fine mums and adults not like me.

3 of my longtime friend from secondary school days are married. 2 are mums now.

And the remaining one is attached.

Only me left in the clique still the same as I am back in secondary schools days.

Mayb bank account balance much better than back in that time? But only that.

I sometimes look at the couples around me and my friends.

And I look at myself.

Am I rly so inferior to them all?

Do I really look that bad?

Do my character rly makes ppl hard to approach or like me?

But I guess is cos my standard is jus too high for my looks and figure.

Actually I love being single.

Jus that sometimes when I watch too much other couples videos and seeing my friends all happily dating and getting married.

Will make me think why no one like me all these years? 

When I go to a fortune teller, he even told me actually in my twenties, I had alot of guys like me. But actually is no totally 

Felt disappointed. But quite irony is that...I like being single and dun wan give birth or get marry.

Rly have a hard time understand what I actually wants.

So earlier back in Jan..I tried to prove my self worth and end up losing myself and my money .

I hope I rly can come out of this loop soon and be really truly happy myself

Returning back to 18

 Yesterday I saw this on my YT feed and watch it..

Love everything abt the drama

there isnt any charatcer that i hated and everything was like teaching me life quotes and thinking

every charatcer seems bad and in the wrong at first bt you never know the story behind them...

the video blogger is also vry good in summarizing the whole story and in the middle adding their own thinking in it..

at the end ..i went out and look at my mum backview doing hsework when she is already so old and eye and legs and back nt gd..

I cried.

thinking why am i still trying to proved i am worth being loved by outside ppl and keep gg out to find smeone who will love me..when at home there is alr one who loves and protected me all these years..

rly a good lesson to teach me after getting scam outside..

finally after 1 mth...

or slightly more longer than that..

my tears came back....

cal cal had finally put everything dwn and get over wif it..

and oh ya..the police nv even contact me after all these time..

i guess..my case was a worthless one as compared to other huge case or ppl who get scammed much mre bigger amt of money than mine..

in the end...only we ownselves can truly protect ourselves

Highly recommend you all out there to watch this drama..

Movie Moonfall

Been 2 years that I had nt went to cinema for movies.

Went to watch one this afternoon

Movie called Moonfall

Scientic fiction disaster kind of movie.

Though the story was like typical disaster movie.

The effects were great and looks real in the theater

With mixed in some funny lines in between.

Totally a not bad movie that I spent money on watching it in the cinema!

Happy Chinese New Year 2022

 

This year Chinese New year is a happy one.

Due to can't crowd.

Just my 1 fam go visit my grandma fam.

Feel so at home as my cousin are at their rooms and my grandma n aunty uncle is at kitchen eating cooking.

So only my fam outside living rm..

And their tv they nv on those channel 8 or what.

Is jus YouTube playlist for those mv for cny songs 

Have fun listening to new songs and see new young faces instead..

Arrived at 2plus and ate steamboat and left at 4pm shiok sia..

Never meet and see all other relatives if nt so stress..all under 1 roof and can't leave till everyone reaches..

Srsly their angpow only $10inside each..

I rather dun take and go home earlier..

This is another pros of this pandemic.

Another year of cny that I easily passed 

Oh ya..recently fell in love wif curls 

Those Korean big wavy hair style

So went to buy a curler on taobao

Jus cost me $15 including shipping

Damn cheap.

And they include a bottle of hair oil to protect my hair also..

Best deal

Then the nex thing to think of is how to do it

Lol

So went on YouTube to see those tutorial vids then tried without the heat on first

And this try one time before I use it for my cny day 1 tdy

Seems like it came out well.

But I believe there is many room for improvement

Dare not have too many curls

Or I will look like ahjuma

Ahahahah 

With kimchi hair style

The nex one I need to learn is how to deal wif my fringe

Since they are curly .

I rly nid to find ways to make it a pretty curl

Luckily my face suits centre parting without fringe

So still looks gd.

If rly cnnt I need to go back to bugis salon to get the guy help me cut and manage my fringe agn lol!

I think hair colour hmmphh

How to say..

Like I found the colour I like to maintain all year round le..

Is outer brown and inner red.

Though wif my hair lenght currently cost $360

But I think I look best wif it

U see har now I dun spend money on my hair n outer looks..

When I am old liao how sia..

At least I gt look my best before when I am still not so old yet ahahahah

Feels Abit wrong if I use the word young on me

Almost 30yr old soon

This aside..

Wish everybody a big huat happy Chinese New year!

May you be blessed with great wealth and health this new year!