150929: Me today.

 Went for my dr appt tdy...

The haze actually peaks at 254 in the afternoon -_-

So i became a weirdo/fashiondisaster/AA girl tdy

As u can see above..

Bt all these is fr the sake of my health in long term

So so so..bobian ajahahaha

Somemre the mask dun nid me buy..dun nid me go cc collect..i rly shld cherish the mask given to me rite?

Ahahha

Then being say by my dr tdy fr nt following instruction on application n usage of my medicine

Jeezzz...

 Then went to HANs fr lunch..

My top 3 fave..beef sirloin aglio olio

Chicken congee and salmon fillet set.

I rly like the food HANs provide.

Up ther ahahah...

Ok wat happens to my diet? 

Ok this lunch is my late lunch n early dinner ok?

One meal fr 2 timing.

So shld be enuf to compensate fr the calories le bah.?

Dun ltr tml morning measure weight..increase agn hah...

Lol!!

Back hm!

I recently find this pose can make my face smaller

Seem smaller ahahaha

Ok being random here...

Time to do some econs qns le hor...

Dun lazy cal ah cal..

U are behind schedule alr...

Yawns...

Haven start i alr feel tired..omo...

The notes gt some slping pills effect on it ar?

Jeezz...

Back !

Sometimes i feel that i am someone who overthink things..
Like stressing over a small matter fr a few hrs...
Fr me...i feel like it is bugging me..
And i cant do anything else before i get this prob solved..
So i will be sitting ther few hrs thinking n doing hard...
Bt these particular matter seems to others as a rly microbic matter only in the end...
I am nt offended or hurt by such remarks..
Bt i actually feel like a fool..like wat the hell am i doing over the past few hrs sia..kind of feeling...
Bt i guess thats jus part of a flaw of me that i had to accept also TT
Also feel restless this 2wks..
Dk is hazy weather or wat...
Like keep feeling tired n slpy everyday...
Do everything oso no enthusiasm..this even ncludes using computer n watch dramas...
I rly jus watch 1 ep then no mood liao..
Cant seem to concentrate at all..then i will jus lie on bed...
Though i hav nt fallen sick so far yet in this hazy weather...i rly hope this haze season will stop soon..
Or wind direction pls change n blow the haze eslewher pls...
Also also...i am bz dieting this few wks
Bt things arent gg smoothly at all...
Sun my bro treat us to mok lum canto restaurant..
I alr told myslef dun eat dun eat till full...
Bt still went hm full stomach..
Then this morning i find myself weighing 0.2kg mre than ytd morning...weight is jus so hard to lose...
Stupid lower body of mine is so fat...看到都气
死胖子!!

小小失落

Tdy felt a little disappointed...
Sometimes a women's intuition is rly spot on..
My worst fear had came true
Luckily i did nt told anyone yet.
If not is disappointed plus embarrass dao~~
Ahahahah...
Ahhhh~~~

News around

Feel sadden by the europe migrants nowadays..
The more articles i came across..the mre pitiful i feel fr them..
We shld feel rly lucky to be born in such safe n peaceful country.
Pray fr them. Innocent civilians.

开学第一天

  今天开学第一天。

八点半的课但我却七点半就到了。

抱着奇怪的心情,好与不好,都有。

早上的世界的路的地铁的学校的空气

早上的一切 我都好喜欢哦

我有很认真听教师再讲哦。

毕竟第一天嘛

啊哈哈

然后放学后去了马来西亚。

然后很顺利很快的到新加坡去吃晚饭。

不过我虽然昨晚十一点就上床了

但都睡不着。

结果看着时间慢慢地过 只睡了两个钟呢

晕了我真是

很快明日礼拜五了

心情还不赖。

所以附上自拍两张

以上^^

Selina

Saw these recent mag interview on selina..

first time saw her scars she got frm the fire explosion accident yrs back..

didn't know it was such a big patch of scar..

Seeing these and I realize she is like gg through similar thing as me..

having a pretty n normal skin since born..

bt suddenly things jus go wrong n scar our skin fr life..

and we are both females..

i was always feeling so so inferior n hate myself n eczema fr bringing these to me..

scarring my limbs back leg ear neck scalp..basically everywhere..

and now I see selina is having it mre worst than me..as she is a artistes..

always being in the limelight n media n public..

how much mre bad she must be feeling all these while..

n to b able to agree to go on the mag shoot exposing her scars I think it is a vry tough n brave decision to come to....

since young 2001 she is my idol..

n she is always like a princess in s.h.e..

didn't realise actually she is the one who have the strongest mentality among the 3...

feel so bad fr her when I heard of the accident..

bt she is rly lucky to have so many family n friends n fans behind her cheering her on..

I think since all ppl alr know of her plights..i think ppl wun cast her alien bad looks when they saw her scars le.. 



Slpless nite

Thought i will slp early..
Only to wakeup at 3am..n unable to slp till now..lol..
No dofference to when i slp late n wakeup late..
Same no. Of hrs slept too..
Jeezz..
One hr plus..replayinh on Red Velvet's Dumb Dumb..
So addictiveee~~~~

Love is a life long lesson.

Saw alot of real life couples these days..
And rly..agree that love has no reason sometimes..
2 person tat u thought in your life will be a pair of parallel lines..
Actually become entwinned by this thing called love..
Rly amazing sometimes...
Make me realize that you doesnt hav to look gd or hav gd figure fr someone to fall in love fr you..
Sometimes..it is jus inside of you..
Whether your magnet inside you attracts the other magnet in another person not..
Srsly,what is love..? ^^

^^

 My hair that have 3 tones..

Lol..

Golden brown black..

Gonna rebond dye n trim my hair once my scalp get better..

Cant stand my fizzy curly uncut 3tone hair anymre..

It has been 3mths since my last salon visit..

Scalp ah scalp pls faster get well..

 Oya..mon when to meet yh n fmh at chocomark..

Had a fun day..

Colouring! Ahahah

Chatting..plus eating a not-at-all spicy shark meat

That make yh go ah! So spicy!

Ahahahah...

Feel like i saw the me in my fam when it comes to spicy food..

Was colouring..when i hearing foo n ong convo...

Suddenly feel like we are rly adults le..

Talking over some budget flight promo and hotel...

Br once agn..i seems to hav come in terms wif myself over my jealousy over friends gg on overseas trip wif ea other..when i cant..

My dad wun allow definitely..

Plus my bank acc doesnt allow too ahahah

I no longer feel jealousy nor sadness over it..

Cos it cant be hlp rite?

If ther is a chance in futuree..it is definitely my turn!

Ahahah

At the vry least my dad is willing to spent money on touring..

If nt i wouldnt hav the chance to go so many countries alr at my age..

Also glad that since i had been to so mamy countries i want to go alr..

It can hlp me save money infuture..

As since i went before le..i dun see the need of gg that country agn..then i can spent money on gg other coutry i haven go before de..

Actually i rly love asia coutry ahahah..

Feel mre belonging to ther sonce i am an asian too..

Feel abit intimated when i go to western countries..

Like they will look at us as we are the minority ther..

Some even thought i am those china tourists and giv us those sneering looks..jeezz..

2 countries left in my itinerary..S.K amd Jap

Though i wemt S.K before bt that was when i am pri 4...

I rly rly didnt get to enjoy when i am ther..

Cos tat time kpop isnt that great yet..

So i didnt even want to try their food..

I rmb only eating white rice n ikam billis..and eating bread frm the bakery at the hotel..ahahah..

Rly hard to accept their food ther...seafood n vege n kimchi...

After all these yrs...i rly like some korean food after i get to try them in sg..

Though i still dun lky kimchi ahahahdun rly lky fermented food.

 And and my pinkku head band frm fmh..

It is abot tight so uncomfortable..

Bt i rly lky the texture n colour of it..

Thnx to fmh keke..

Okok..shall update till here...

And and i rly rly is wait fr my online clothes n shoes till my white hair coming out alr...

Nex time shld choose economy air..

Hope it will arrive at beginning oct...

Hey! Say! JUMP

Recently fell in love wif the first song in the vid..
By Yamada Ryosuke - 3 月14日時計
Love his singing awww...
Also fell in love with kamiki ryonosuke..gakkou no kaidan *hearts hearts*
Effect of watching all the Jdrama..
Jdrama n Jvariety is rarely sub n found online..
Think my feels will die soon..ahahah..
bt fr now..these song is on a replay in my mp3 :)

Early morning.

I am diligently updating my blog everyday..
To note dwn the feelings i am feeling everyday..every moment..
So that i can rmb this is wat i feel n i will work hard everyday rmbing this depressed angry disappointed feeling this few mths..
Today is the end of my first ssce session at 8am..
It started frm ytd 1pm..
And gives me lots of headaches throughout the day as i realise i cant take the new 2 mods i planned to take de..esap n mm..
I was like wtf why i cant when i meet the pre requisites?!
Then email sim and they put notice will reply within 3days n i am like wait u reply my ssce emd liao lo..
Then i so despo..that i tried calling in sim fr 4whole hrs n it nv get through..jus play music n kip ask me wait...
And i still had to go out meet ppl at evening..
Rly things jus piled up all tgt..
Nvm i jus wemt out..then thought of gg dwm straight to sim to ask..bt their office is closed at 5.30pm..which is too late even if i wemt dwn..
Then thought of tml morning go sch ask somce i hav a second ssce sessiom opening at tml 5pm..
Ask friend to accompamy me...bt get home to see that sim had reply me alr..and i found out myself why i cant take..cos i fail 3..i cnnt take any lvl 200 or 300 course only 100 course can take..
So spent 4hrs in my room..reading email scanning through sch website and gg simconnect enrol modules swap and make my desirable timetable.
11pm..finally it is done n settled..
Poa bmgc econs resits 3 unit i crammed to 2 days thur n fri..all morning class as i think i can focus mre in the morning..though it is gonna be hard to wake up at wee hrs..
And decide to giv up Management Maths a lvl200 unit as my elective as i  can only take it nex yr after i pass my 3 resits..
Bt prob is i dw wait. I wan this yr clear as many as i can..so i decide to take 2 lvl100 half units ( stats2 and maths2) as my electives instead..
Thought this 2 seem mre difficult than MM
Bt i decide to clear this yr.
If rly heng heng this yr pass all..i total only clear 5units..i am then left wif 7 units to clear..
Which i decide to spread out yr 3 4units yr 4 3 unit.
Lets hope this yr rly can pass!
I rly hate essay writing in exam...everythime ask us apply apply wth!
Still pondering whether it is ok to take this 5 mods anot..since it will be similar as wat i take in yr 1..
Poa bmgc econ maths 1 n stat1 (year1)
Poa bmgc econ maths2 n stat2 (year2)
Ahhh srsly..if nex yr i dun passed all..i alr think vry carefully..n come to a conclusion alr.
Thats i will quit uni forever n jus go out work wif my diploma..though pay will be lesser without deg..
Bt i rly have no mrw time to waste le..going 23 nex yr liao...if contd failing n repeat uni..gonna be 30 liao..no money oso..
Though my dad will be so angry n disappointed if i drop out uni.. i will jus frankly tell him that i cant cope anymre..sorry..
I dw to lied to him that i am all well n fine wif uni
When i am actually jus pulling on a thin rope fr survival in uni n struggling...
It jus hurts so much n break my heart when i see my dad n bro having such high expectatioms on me..when meimei grad..aiya my girl study so jard liao cfm can pass de mah..
And my mum  who is the only one who know everything..everyday so sad bt dare nt say me as scare i stress..
Bt i know in her heart she is so so disappointed that her only daughter who always no prob in her studies de..suddenly changes to the worst of the worst in unj...
All these jus breaks my heart n making me so tired everyday seeing them n seeing at my life...
Cal ar cal must always rmb this feeling now.
Then bite your teeth through.

One Mre Year.

Now in my heart.
Jus have this one thinking.
F**k this uol.
F**k this life.
F**k everything.
Bt I will fight this as long as I breathes.

Amused by his acting once agn...
Cos he want you to chat wif him..
He makes up excuses that u shld rest your eyes.
Every30min frm playing com..hp..and reading mag..
So he is basically ask u to close your eyes n do nth every30min..
So i went to slp..n he faster come n keep disturbing sprouting nonsense say wat bonding..
If he want bond..he shld tc of us frm when we needed him..
From young it was my mum who tc n do everything fr us...he think his job of a dad is complete by jus giving measly money to mum every mth n coming home to slp..
He thinks tc of kids is troublesome n always went out.
And now we are big n he scare we are so close to mum n nt him..then he wanted to bond wif us now..
And always talk bad of mum n try to brainwash us wif his best dad image..after all the thing he does..
We jus act blur..bt u think we rly dk anything?
We lost our respect fr u long ago..bond? Care? Sorry but all thats left is jus our responsiblity to earn bak the money u gave us all these yrs and giv you a shelter to live and food to eat..
Whether u cry..angry..happy..sad..I'm sorry bt i dun feel anything..

Stress relieve here

I just god damn hate my dad's character and personality!
A single damm thing he can ask n ask n ask
Every single day
Every single tv commercial
He will come in my room n ask back the same damn thing!!
Then i will be repeating the ans for the same qns again n again every day every hr like a broken recorder..
And he claim to forget or say he cares n worry abt me thats y he kip asking me the same qns..
Pressing me fr a response..
I am so pissed that i jus tell him..if he wanted to find someone to talk so badly..
For godness sake jus get out of our hse n go fond our neighbour or whoever to talk..dun talk to me!!!
I dun mind talking to him..bt he jus always ask the lame qns..like u today eat wat...your sch when start..you playing wat game..wat name of the app..how to play..wat show u watching...nice meh..u got drink water mt...u eat fruits le nt...wat fruit u eat...your skin gt put medicine nt..i dun mind answering him..
But he jus ask every single time eveey day same day..
I dk wat the hell is this...every 15 min he jus comes in my room n ask the same round of qns!!!
22yrs!! Rly is enuf alr!! Cant he see i dun wan to talk at all??
Everything oso ask..then ask le..he oso dun giv a damn de..ask shuang only..then nex time ask agn..wtf!!
Like when is my ssce..i alr told him when i know i will tell him...then 10min ltr come in ask agn..then say why so slow de..u gt ask you sch nt..you gt check email nt..
No wonder nobody wants to talk a single word when he is at home.
Rly hate this type of person srsly.
Bt is still my dad..i cant choose n i cant change..
Only can accept n endure..
Luckily my mum is totally opp frm him..
If nt srsly...i cant live wif him..one him is max alr