Early bday gift

my bro had this time round went to Shanghai with my sis inlaw

And bought alot snacks fr me and shunbian my bdae gift as my bdae nearing

And I won't be in sg

But what makes me more touched is

Thursday nite then he ask me what I need for my bdae

Which I then told him

And end up sat noon he alr get all the items and pass to me before we went out for my bdae dinner treat given by my dad

So is like Friday? He went to buy everything after work.

So I hen gan dong la

Then I msg him

Why the older u get

The more sweet things u will do for ppl

Lol!!

It is like this is not the bro I know

Since the first laptop he got fr me in my last last bdae.

Hella shock

For someone like him to go such lengths to spend for my bdae I rly speechless

Then went jumbo seafood and thought my bro will definitely order crabs

Endup he screaming he tdy wan eat lobsters

I was saying tdy is NOT your bdae treat

Why are u choosing the menu for the day

Damn funny

Bt since lobster is my fave

So we ordered 2 in diff sauce

A fried fish and sharkfin for my mum

And the bill came up to be $666

Lol!

My dad wallet burnt a big hole

But it is for me and my mum bdae so still ok la

2 bdae 1 meal

My mum bdae n mine jus difference of 2 days that's why

And after returning to ea of our homes

My sis in law send me a e-card

Wif a sweet msg below.

Aww

Then I replied her

Ya lo, hope I alone in foreign country won't lose my belongings

Bt fr my snowboarding, no choice

I also hope in future have chance me u and bro can tgt go snowboarding

Rly when friends all have own other half n family

They will frgt and won't celebrate bdae wif u anymore so

End up

Only own family won't miss out your bdae celebrations

Gandong!

 

Great lengths to avoid

Today is my dad birthday.

Normal people will try to rush hm for celebration

Bt fr me, it is jus a day that I can't go home

As my relationship with my dad is worst than a stranger.

Someone that I hope to forever avoid and dun see.

Once I knew he had take leave off work tdy

My plan to avoid meeting him commerces 

I wakeup at 5am. And went out at 6am before sun even rise

Then went office waste time. As I normally reach office almost 10am

Today I reach office before 8am

Then knock off 5.45pm

And went lib till 9 close doors

And stroll ard clock my steps but starting drizzling

So now I am seated at a bench under my house to past time

I can only go home at 11pm. When I make sure he is aslp and wun have to greet or talk or see or hear him.

I know there are many ppl put ther have even worst relationship bet their dads and themselves.

However, I sometimes am rly sick of such life.

4mre yrs before I reach legal age to buy my own flat and move out.

Also recently felt my life is actually quite pathetic.

Without friends and without family.

All married and all gone.

Feels like it is only me that is remaining at the same spot like 17yrs ago

Why I dun even have someone who can remain at the same spot as me.

All are so busy moving on 

I am jus like a 13yrs old kid in my heart whereby everyone is 31 already.

Lonely lonely journey.

脱轨 Derailment Cdrama

 

Had spend 2 days of my wkend

Starting and finished this Cdrama

I started watching cos of the male lead and female lead so pretty and handsome.

Bt the plot n story line makes me wanna stop watching at the first 5 eps

Rly dunno what is the storyline and what they are protraying

Scene cutting in here n ther

Bt after that, the story line started to flow

So basically is like inception

The leads thought they had time travel to like being this world being a virtual game and they need to wakeup and go back to their real world bt

Endup up they are a test subjects of a brain science research and they escaped

So it was quite a good plot.

And there is not much loveline

If u are someone who except kissscene hug scene lovey-dovey scene

There isn't much

But I think this is a gd drama that I have enjoy

OST was great as well

Best and my most memorable line in the whole drama was male lead first confession to female lead in their high sch days before college exam

The male lead was staying secretly at the hair salon the femail lead was working as he had ran away from home and had nowwher to stay

And the scen was when the femail lead inform the male lead that the salon is closing down so he cannot stay overnight secretly here anymore 

Then the male lead suddenly told the female lead

我们这样会影响高考吗?

Hinting at their some relationship now

Will their blossoming relationship hinder studies?

And male lead continue saying 

算了，我还是等高考结束后才和你说吧

Meaning he will wait till after the college exam which means after they go uni

Then he will confess to her and start officially their relationship

As the girl was focusing on her exams as she came from a poor family 

And she is determine to score well and go to a good uni to earn money to escape from her current situation

This is rly a heart fluttering line to me

The male lead had already 认定his muse bt to respect her wish n priority

He push back his confession

If only..

My life now is a a virtual game and

What will happen when I wakeup one day and go back to reality

What would it feel?

Smiling depression

Saw this online.

And regarding to my current mentality

This seems to describe my symptoms 

I remember I had post previous

I am tired of always laughing n smiling in front of colleagues friends

I dun feel true happiness frm laughing

Jus like it is a reaction to show people

So it is smiling depression huh?

Hope i can control it without the need of medication or experts counseling

 

AI 2024

Since I am HR, I am doing my own AI letters

So I had know my own AI amount way before the rest of the normal staff

What I can say is

This company that I join 1.5yr back once again let me in shock

The AI that I gotten is 13% increase

When this kind of rate is when u got promoted or you change to new job

Normal AI according to 2023 market rate is only 3-4% 

And ironically, my normal AI increase is even mre than my promotion back when I was in my previous company Pokka

Rly was a wise decision to leave.

Though I am surrounded by good hods, managers and colleagues

But everyone also will leave eventually, and money won't betray u

After leaving Pokka, my salary rly jump so much in this 2yrs time that my hands will tremble and my mind will go blank

Don't know is it my expectations are not that high as compare to my peers

But srsly I didn't think I can earn this amt at my current age.

It is like the goal u had in mind in the nex 10yrs suddenly u get to it in 2 yrs.

Lol!!

Need to cherish, and be grateful, save fr rainy day and esp nowadays so many scam and inflation , gst hikes

Need be double triple careful

Those scammers they will rly burn and be torture in hell forever

Have smart minds and hands n legs, but don't work and chose to steal, cheat ,scam ppl of their hard-earned money and life savings

Retribution will definitely come seek them soon.

Also nowadays, the world seem to be not so peace

With natural disasters, man made disasters, that costs so many lives

Rly hope world can be peaceful. Love life and love the world.

Cherish what u have and always be grateful.