My favourite lunch in SP..

Always ate this if i went FC 3..

this salmon omelette rice is daebak!!

cost 4.50 and the salmon is rly big and thick..

unlike those outside one..

the salmon can slice until so thin..and cost 6plus some mre..

Old days~

Suddenly had the urge to see back the me in the past..

hahas..

 genting trip wif my relatives..

i was scared till death when sitting on top..

bt force to open eyes and smile to take pic lol..

lol me so scare..hahas

 at the teacup..

was goin to vomit after turning round n round..

bt agn force to smile as nid take pic lol..

i am the only one that is soo no use isnt it?

 wif teddy bear..

the pants i wearing rly so retro type hahas..

and the one in blue is my brother lol..

 when i was being taken care by my nanny that my mum hired..

wif other kids that my nanny is taking care of too..

rly gd memories as i was the apple of their eyes hehe..

which means i am the most favoured one among all of them..

spoilt me hahas..

opps frgt intro..the one in red is me..thone standing nex to me is my brother..

and the one standing nex to my bro is my first 'boyfriend' hahas..

my nanny forever wan paired me up wif him..

and the little girl standing nex to him is his sister..and my first best girl fwen..

we rly stick tgt all the time..

it is a waste tat we all now lost in touch after we left nanny hse and all moved houses..

 Me and my family in korea's lotte world..

this was in 2003 which means 10 years had since passed..

still rmb i went to sit the pirate boat wif my bro at lotte world..

thought it was indoor ride so wun go so high and it would not be so scary..

however i was soooo wrong hahas..

i rmb opening my eyes was the boat when descending to try find wheres my mum was standingbelow the ride..

and she was sooo tiny like an ant..

that was when i found out i am so high up!!

lol..

i am glad i still rmb everything when i was in korea..

cos my family wun be goin korea anymre as we went before le..

 we went to climb the mountains

and on the way up as it was winter..the ground on the mountain have ice and my bro slip and nearly drop off the mountain as his legs are outside of the railings and we quickly pull him up!

on the mountain top..the sun is soo glaring..

bt it was my first time climbing a mountain the feeling is great

and dk if i am still young i am not tired even abit fr climbing the mountain hahas..

 went to a stadium and we was outside the stadium..

and suddenly the wind blows so strongly..sooo cold!!

still rmb i was so hell hungry everyday in korea as i rly cnnt adapt to their food ther..full of vege lol..

i even went to buy bread in the middle of the night at my hotel..

 at the airport goin bak home!

 i was so short then..and now i am almost the same height as my dad..

lol

 went on a free USS trip wif my family..in the hotel

 in taiwan~~

their amusement park is bigger then sentosa in sg i think lol..

 wmzyj went sentosa..had a small rally game on the beach..

it was rly funny..

me and mh one grp and kel n yh one grp yish VS semb one hahas..

tmy was the referee of the game..

i think judging frm the photo,semb team win!! hahas

 was rly dizzy..

 During internship in poly.. rly thankful have my poly friend being sent to same company as me..

 

 class outing! the last outing i went lol..

cos after half of my original class went china..

the class outing always merge wif other class which my clique are not accqataince wif so nv go le..

 lol..i rly frgt why me and mh took the pic? hahas..the sunglasses still had price tag on..

 went fr the sch's marathon..

luckily gt mh accompany me..think kel, yh nv go..

then tmy have duties need go earlier to the event..

so heng gt mh accompany me go the bishan park..heess

taiwan agn..the scenery rly cnnt be find in sg..rly nice!!

Neoprints~ think i spent half of mylife savings on neoprint in the past..

lol

 At raffles instuition to be be volunteer fr a fencing compeition..

when i am yr 1 in SP..

those were the times we are still close when fyp haven start.. ^^

 having lunch..the girl in front lowering the head is me and my fwen hahas..

 

 Movie date wif carol after we grad from sec sch..

wonder how is she nowadays..

 went some shopping..in the fitting room playing ard..

 she seems to be like my soul mate in sec sch days..

always sticking ard tgt regardless in class, orals, morning assembly, practicals oso always partner tgt as our register number are 5 and 6 forever tgt as both our name starts wif CA..

though we quarrel and cried sometimes..bt we rly make up vry soon cos she is always so direct and dun keep things in her heart.

a pity we are frm diff clique so recess time and after sch time we are separated..

thinking back it is rly weird rite?

another movie date wif mh..

this time was a memorable one as we are the only one in the theatre..

lol..frgt which movie we watching why so unpopular..lol

miss my long hair!!

i rly like this family pic..

i seem so happy..



Panyachon kon krua Ost. - Please Trust Me

this is the first thai song i like sia..

cos of this drama

lmao..

bt i still now feel abit weird listening ppl speaking thai..

kekes..

need some time accept..

3 Years Pass le wor..

Grr, i post so less fr this mth as i am bz wrapping up my fyp..

so sry..hahas..

Also, it is the 3rd anniversary fr my blog le!!

I pen my first post on 23 Jan 2010..and now it 25 Jan 2013..

Wow..I am feeling so amazed!! happy bdae to my blog!! You are 3 yrs old now..

thanks fr being a place wher i can write out all my stress,anger,happiness here fr these 3 yrs..

Thanks fr being wif me marking the times i spent this 3 yrs..

I start this blog after i grad frm sec sch..and now i am still blogging when i am goin to grad frm poly le..

Gonna turn 20 soonnn..aww...

100% Ver of HUG..

Rly gd vocals!!

and i lky the rap part they add in..

A New Change Soonnn

Think my hair need a change soonn..

plan to colour my hair...

chose 2 colour i like then

went to ask my friends and family which colour nicest..

and yeap cfm which colour and bought it yest..

Shall have it dye before cny comes..

Gonna straighten my hair and have it trim and have my fringe back..

so somewhere in feb..

hehe..what would my hair become?

lol..

hope it wont come out too light as i still need go sch after that lol..

Finally!! FYP's Over!!

It was fyp presentation tdy..

Presented nervously and i think we sucks at the QA session..

the lecturers were scary and we dunno our stuff..

so in the end we look at them and smile w/o answering the qns..

Lmao..

I still rmb the first day we went to have a meeting our first meeting wif lecturer fr ur fyp..

to brief us what we are suppose to do..

and we wrote on fb lets hope we dun quarrel during fyp and watever..

this all seems like yest..

We started on a happy,nervous, excited note..

And i am grateful that we ended at a happy note

Even though, we had unhappiness, fustration, awkward and stress times that almost lead to conflicts every now and then..

I am glad we managed to endure it all and act lky nth happen and contd on our fyp..

Cause when i see rong's fyp grp quarrel out, their friendship scarred and they are lky so awkward

and treat ea other like stranger if they are not doin fyp things..

 

Fyp is over..i think the hardest days during fyp is when we are doin labwork fr shelf life test

that was the time i hate goin sch everyday..cos i noe one fyp mates will mia agn and i need to do all the work i am pushed to do by the remaining fyp member..like washing things fr 4 hrs straight and finding lecturers and tso while she jus cut papaya and blend them then sit dwn then ask me wash which thing first cos she want use tat ltr.. i almost exploded and say u cnnt wash yourself ar,i gt so many bowl untensil,blender and pots to wash! rly feel like a maid.

 

And another time i hate is when we are doing HPLC analysis..

I rly dk abt the test procedures and whatever thing frm it.

and the lecturer always ask me do the this do tat..i am soo stresss.

bt until the last day of hplc i jus sit ther watch silently as techer analyse the result wif my that bossy grp mates, and techer at last told me: take it easy..it is quite complicated fr u to learn it at such a short time, bt your friend know alr so it is fine now..

After hearing it i feel so relax..finally hplc gonna end..

and then we need to started on our report...thats was another stress period..

tat was when we two are almost bursting wif anger and fustration wif the mia fyp mate..

as she cmi fr the whole lab period leaving us doing the lab work.

and now she come do report jus sit ther use phone and even worst slp when we are ther discussing abt report..at most she jus type out the words that we say exactly..

we no hands ar? dk hw type meh..

and last few days even better,mia agn...

so we gave her some research to do. and she said ok..bt nth came back frm her since now..

we ask her one time and she say haven do... and that it..we complete the part ourselves agn..

then the other bossy fyp member would pressure me do this and that as she english not good..
RLY HOR that mia grp mate only hlp alot in the sensory in finding ppl come..
bt i am oso talk to each n everyone of them inside the sensory booth ar i am not doin nth.
only tha bossy grp mate is outside say she bz pour juice cnnt hlp to go out find ppl or come in help me..
ya now that i rmb i hate the time we having sensory!!
bt agn i endure..lol..endurance lvl got vry high hor me?

I rly dk hw handle conflicts after effect so i endure it..

fr me is once have conflict and argument..my relationship wif that person is over, no longer stands..

as i would feel awkward talking to them alr and i would always rmb the quarrel we had.

So i jus chose to leave them.
(unless if this person is important to me and i dun wan leave them)
My post seems to emo agn..SO

So back to the point! Now my feeling is sooo relieved and happy..

though i noe my fyp marks will be not good.

bt i rly dun care le..

over jiu hao..

 

Cannot Believe it.

Jus learnt yesterday that it was my neighbour uncle who had commit suicide on 16jan.

Cnnt believe it

As i can rmb seeing him walking by the corridor and talking to my other neighbours jus afew days ago

My dad and bro got talk to him sometimes de. but me dun have.

Feel apologetic. I can still rmb how he and his wife moved in and he go water his plants along the corridor.

I dk why..yest maybe got home late frm sch and tired then cant seem to managed my emotions and tears jus kip falling.

I always had suicidal thoughts in these three yrs that I studied in poly when I felt stressed or things are not going the way i had wanted.

And I forget the happy me in the past.

However,I am afraid of pain and think of many ways of suicide methods to see which one is the most instant and cant feel any pain or fear. But I realise something today.

I came into conclusion today: if I am still afraid of committing suicide,that means i still can coped wif my life. as death is scarier than living. One day, if i am no longer afraid of dying, then it means living is scarier than dying. and maybe at that time, I would chose to die.

王仁甫 一见你就笑

This is rly funny esp when the ru hua is singing..hahas..

suddenly like watching back some 5566 Zax Wang vids..

he is rly funny.if the vid not working you may try the link below..
is same vid bt from pps and not youtube.
http://v.pps.tv/play_32ZUEH.html

Schwork, Not Again?

Went sch early in the morning today since 8 am..

Was so vexed at home.

So decided to come sch lib use the computer there to completed my datasheets, fyp ppt slides and my assignments..

now is 1pm in the afternoon..

and i had completed..hmmph..

1. my datasheets and send to my gpmates fr compilling

2. My individual assignments and had run a plargirism check on it and now waiting the report of the check and after everything ok need to had it print be4 fri nex wk and submit.

So..so i am left wif my fyp ppt slides..my parts.. the parts that i am gonna presented on the 23 Jan 3.30pm.

My doomsday..

Today feeling was better.

ytd was my worse day..

hiax..some family things ya..so dun wish to talk more about here.

bt i am sry that i speak some words that hurt me and my dad.

i have said words lky: 'I nv say i want to be born in the earth.' 'Mayb after i grad frm poly i will die so dun nid wry abt which uni i am goin, will you?'

I....Am...Rly...Sorryy.

I promised I will try to live my life to the fullest for the time I had left in this world, ok?

Is it worth it?

Today, one of my fwens cry out of angry plus sadness in front of me and my another fyp mate..

Cause of unhappinese bet her fyp mates..

After hearing it,only one word to describe: selfish

everybody only care fr themself and think they are always right and push the blame to others..

So endup, the 'others' suffered and friendship scarred..

I have no rights to comment anymore on it..

As i am having same probs wif my grp oso..

it is jus that we three act blur as fyp still nid contd and we still nid face ea other and work tgt everyday..

Hiax.

then at hm,my dad is forever pushing me abt uni things, make until me rly dun feel lky goin hm.

I am so fake at sch.. and so real at home..

And this happens everyday that i start to doubt who's the real me?

 

Sobs...

It is the start of my last semester in poly..

I rly wan it to be over soon bt yet it is jus the first day nia..

And it is raining here at my home too..

this weather makes me wanna slp all the mre.

Today after sch ends nid edit the fyp report fr the last time..

Cher sae not bad bt cn edit fr some minor things and cn think of stuff to add in the discussion part..

I tdy goin ask my that 'ghost' fyp member why she last wk nv come fr fyp and nv tell us the reason and nv reply ur msg.

Rly so jealous that she cn be so ok wif us,after not contributing to fyp.

Do we look so easy to her? and she can use us as n when she lky?

not scolding her bt jus wanna ask her the reason why she nv come fr the last time.