JB Day Trip

Damn funny

It started with my casual remark

Abt I 10 yrs nv go Malaysia alr

And suddenly I am there with my colleagues

Last sat in JB

Totally first time been so close with my colleagues

They are rly like my friends and not colleagues

Thanks to JZ for letting me know

At times. Can don't draw a line bet colleagues and friends

Who knows what great memories you will make with them

Went HDL

Then go to Mt Austin for hair treatment ,cafe hop, sing k

Before returning back to the Sentral 

For dinner and last min shopping

And back to sg

Learning the way Gen Z take photos

See my awkward face in the first photo lol!!

Rly alot ppl in front looking at me when I am taking the pic ok?

And my colleagues tricking the staff that it is my bdae that day

And the staff rly brought out a speaker play song and sing happi bdae song right I the middle of the busy restaurant with all eyes on me

Damn embarrassing

At the same time, I rly appreciate them doing this fr me

First time in my life I am experiencing this

Not bad

很幸福有像梦的一天

Eat wadever I wan 

Not caring Abt calories and money

Last sat is rly like a dream

For the past 30yrs, I only sing k with my fam 1 time, 1 time with a colleague, and rest of the times were only with my sec sch clique

And suddenly when I am 31,

Suddenly, I get to sing with a guy, my bf and a bunch of colleagues

Nv did I dream I will go sing k again after COVID

Since my sec sch friends are now all busy mum's even meetup fr a meal also hard, let alone sing k.

Thanks to JZ for telling me, we are the one who choose our friends and not waiting fr friends to choose us

Dont keep hanging onto memories and wait at the same spot for friends to come back look fr me

Instead I shld also move on and look fr new friends to make my life better

I am rly fine n good

as long as i am willing to open up my heart to new ppl

I can also manage to find n make new friends with similar interest as me

So I feel like I found another grp of friends that have common things with me.

Like I went back to the days when I am a student and hanging out with my friends frm same sch

And they sing n shout like a bunch of crazy girls

And best thing is they off the original singer voice

And sang totally off tune

So endup I also gave up seriously singing and shouted wif them

Lol!!

10am went in JB and 11pm then reach sg on sat

End up sun need go tmy hse see her 1 mth baby enzo

And also saw mi Kai er and his 4 mth old sis agn

She grow up so much since ei last saw her

Rly cuteee

The most heartwarming thing that once I enter tmy hse

The mikaier, jus ran out and hug me, so surprised that he still rmb me

Aigooo, cute lil one

Four out of five attendance wmzyj

 The Videos on how embarrassed i am 

having my surprised 'bdae celebration' at JB HDL 

LOL

https://youtube.com/shorts/STWzHhaTVDs?si=7D8_JFAUlG9x7Hgj https://youtube.com/shorts/oK51s1fQ6dI?si=6C2-XizYHLk8VuIr https://youtube.com/shorts/hBcageiKgSQ?si=b4xeh7xIgpJq4S13

First photo tgt~

Finally had chance to take the above 

I had always envy those couple that post such photos wif their bf

And also first selca tgt

He walked me home after our date on Sunday

Then I kept telling him 

The feeling is Soo weird

First time walking home with a guy

Then end up we talk at my hse dwnstairs will 10plus, totally lost track of time

And faster ask him go home

As he normally slp at 11pm 

As tml still need work

So I test him what is the date that we officially became gfbf

Last Fri, asked him, he can't ans

Then ytd he told him firmly 8 sep lol!

And is correct lol!

Then I test him my bdae and he said correctly thought took me few sec more

Then he tried to test me and ask me when is his bdae

I immediately say out

Then he Abit like wah, didn't expect that I know ahahab

Ofc easy fr me rmb, we both at third day of the mth born de, and I always saying he is younger than me 3mths. Is xdd lol!

 

Past Week Updates

So sweet of Penelope to drive specially to my house to pass me her baby 1 month cake

And this brand de cake damn nice!!

But I prefer the durian flavour one most.

And the most precious one is her handwritten card

I love such thing, cards, letters, notes

I feel this kind of gift rly shows the sincerety of the giver

Self care day at my asesthic clinic 

Been a mth since I started my session

So far haven seen the effect of the treatment so far

We shall see after I completed the whole 20sessions

Birthday celebration for our hod

In the midst of a meeting

And u can see our awkward smiles

Lol!

Shhh, my bf doesn't know I had secretly taken a photo of him playing the basketball game

Bt srsly, 有点被他的实力帅到

所以需要拍照留念一下

His final score 514 lol!

So back to the guy who didn't reply me for 4days

Then I text him then he told me

He need lone time to sort of his mind

On Sunday.

And I send him a finally text with well wishes and end things with him le

4mths of companion

Then ytd nite I went to look fr my ex colleagues Penelope and had a heart to heart talk on this issue with her husband

Managed to come to a conclusion that

All guys as long as gentlemen enough they will do such acts of kindness to me de

Like treat me dinner, send me home after that, drive to office giv me lozenges

And enough 细心的人 also will do the same thing, like adjust the car seat in advance when knowing I like to sit straight and choose to play S.h.e playlist on Spotify cause I told him I like s.h.e 

Don't have the wrong idea that he does it only to me

And I am special to him

He does it to all girls he met on the app and all his friends and acquaintance 

I also told my friend I will not text him le, end things le, I won't think or imagine that he actually likes me

End up 2 days ltr, he text me on Tues, asking me what's fr lunch

I rly don't know what he wants

Always popping into my life as n when he likes and leave whenever he wants

This time round I am gg to jus treat him as a normal friend le.

Focus on my bf

How to fall in love with my bf

 

Ending of a Some Relationship

Ending came earlier than expected.

May to Sep 2024.

Have to go through the process of of removing a habit again

Humans are adaptable creatures I believe

Time will take us through anything, anyone.

To me, is not falling out of love. More of losing in a push pull game

So...still not that bad situation for me I guess?

It is the memories that is precious to me.

For I had strike off an item to do on my bucketlist once again

Hwaiting!

Introvert trying to live like a extrovert

 

All started with a random msg at evening asking me to join her fr a badminton session

This jiejie that I befriend on the cmb app

Had expressed my interest to join her fr badminton previously

Bt she suddenly said she manage to book a court at sembawang kaki canberra

And she have an extra racket.

So Jio me along with her bro and his best friend

So I was like suddenly nv think too much and agree to her proposal

9 to 10pm session

Mayb cause ytd morning de health screening, I see my weight is 43kg

So happy mood

So still I think is better that I inform my bf also la

Though my colleagues were saying why need tell him

Bt as there will be other guys present

I promised him before I will tell him everything de.

So jus text him

Then he ask me to have fun ahahah

So at night after dropping off my stuff n changing my clothes at home.

I jus walk to there.

End up my jiejie say her bro nt free, so her dad joining them instead

So suddenly make me nervous

Never in my life I had think that I will be gg play sweaty sports with a friend I met online and also her family members and friend

Lol!!

I mean I nv even did such thing with my long time realife friend de lo

Damn epic!!

Her bro's friend is damn pro kind and try to train me in a Sparta like style

Scaryyy!!

Bt have a nice time sweating esp after sooo long

After that walking home , with the pretty views and night breeze damn shiok.

Msg my bf that I am walking home after my badminton session

With the below pic

4th day being official bfgf

Still need time to adjust that I have to report my whereabouts and what I am doing to a someone in my life.

Normally, I won't do this even to my mum or dad

Lol!!

Then ytd nv take dinner, I tot after badminton I will be hungry

End up no supper either

Jus bathe n slept like a log

Arm n leg sore totally

This morning I weigh myself

Lowest le

Lol!!

Shld will go up soon

As nex time I gonna go jb eat HDL with my colleagues lol!!

Lowest weight & official bfgf

so this morning I jus went to weight myself

And!

To my surprise

44kg!!!!

Damn happy!!

Lowest weight since I am in pri 1

And sun is my cheatdays!

So I early morning

Went kfc eat my porridge with Milo

Then went for my hair salon appt

Then lunch meetup with JJ

And had Genki Sushi

And when u think is it the end

Noooo, I went home and still ate dinner

Mc wings and spicy nuggets

Lol!!

3meals in a day

Tml morning then is 重头戏

Weight will be 45.6kg

Ahaha

Bt I also wanna see if I rly eat 3 meals

How much will my weigh fluctuate 

Then I still have Monday to lower my weight back to 45.2kg 

Intime for my heath screening on Tues!

This Hokkaido milk parfait with dango

Damn nice!!

Ok real topic of the day came by

So after so many yr

I receive another official f2f confession in my life

Hen failed by sincere confession 

With no flowers no gift 

So JJ said what he like Abt me 

Basically I am his type 

Cute yet pretty 

He likes talking to me

And feel comfortable ard me

But at times he will be nervous and don't dare look at me straight

And need to think awhile before he can answer me at times

He is Abit innocent n cute that he ask me how to make me fall in love with him

Ahahhaha

Ok I missed out the part,

As I told him frankly

As of now, I only have gd feelings towards him as a normal friend

And don't have any romantic feelings towards him as a guy

So lets be official bfgf relationship for a mth.

Let's say rly still don't have feelings for him,we shall end things

As I don't wanna waste his time anymore.

Then I also shared with him,

Of my previous failed relationship 

That makes me insecure and doesn't rly open up my heart to start loving ppl that easily

Esp when it comes to trusting guys agn

I tell him if u like me

Pls show in in action instead of words

As I am Abit numb to it

As this is wat my ex did to me

So if u ask me how to make me fall in love with u

There is no specific way

Bt jus be honest with me at all times

I believe honesty is the basis of a relationship 

Say it out and we work things out tgt

And not enduring and end up quarreling 

Be more proactive.

If u wan hold my hands ,jus hold. Why need wait for me?

Then I tdy also show him,

I 主动牵她的手

And teach him, u see if I wan hold u, I jus hold lo, hen hard meh?

Then he smirked

This kid rly need to teach de

If not don't say 1mth. Given his snail speed

1yr I also won't fall for him

I like guys with guts and proactive

Hope this 1 mth I will see drastic improvements in him

Bt I also Abit surprised he is willing to accept my proposal 

Thought he will reject or get pissed off

Lol!

But I am glad that I being upfront Abt my real feelings to him

As I know he is a nice innocent person and I don't wanna hurt him by lying to him 

And I keep stressing, if u feel uncomfortable,not happy, must be honest wif me.

 

Dramalike life

这几天

一直好像活成了偶像剧里的女主角一样

每天都有剧里的台词 和剧情 发生

不知道

当梦醒了

当12点钟一过了

会不会像灰姑娘一样

躲在简陋的角楼里哭泣呢？

他说他不太会回人的简讯

不怎么喜欢回信息

但是他却回我的信息那么勤

是不是又要告诉我自己

肯定又是乱想了 想太多了你

人家只是 刚好看到你信息

又刚好 有空才回你的

不要想太多

你不可能是女主角的。

Another experience off my bucket list

So on last Sunday, 

Sat down in a cafe at Jewel with JJ

And we both say about after setting expectations for ea other before decide whether wanna progress further into rs

It has been a mth le

So I asked him, u got know me better le mah?

How is it? Still like me? And can wanna progress further?

Then he said, if he don't like, then he won't keep wanting to meet me le

So I then tell him, based on my observations on him the past mth,

Actually, I don't like that he always late. Make me think if he doesn't rly see me as important or our meeting is not impt.

Then I also tell him, even after becoming bfgf, I hope he won't stop me from continue to be in contact with my male friends and gg out dinner meetup with them.

Which he nodded 

Then I also said ofc whenever I meet my male friends , I will report frankly to him la.

If nt ltr he not happy again like last time

Lol!

Then I also ask him when will u get a car license? As I wan my bf to fetch me home and from office go dinner tgt kind. Bt if he no car then how I bear to ask him send me home when he stay in east side and I am in north side.

Then he say ok.

Then I ask him to be more romantic and proactive and when gg on dates , can he be more decisive where to go n eat mah? And impt occasiona can make reservations?

If nt no seats then always look at my face like I gt answer on my face.

Then after stating my request. I ask him u got any request?

Then he at first say no. Then I go force him say smth.

Then he hen shy say out, u dun like to text gd morning , gd nite kind? Then I told him, only my bf then will have this 待遇 which he laughs

Then I ask him any more?

And he said can u be more 主动to牵手? Then I said bt it is not me who want to hold your hands de. Why shld I be 主动。你要牵，那你就要自己来牵啊 lol!!

So vry funny, I keep asking him anymore request, bt after he say his request, I will reject his every request lol!

Then I still ask him anymore? Then he say can hug not? 

I replied, siao meh, already is bfgf le ofc can hug la.

Anymore? Then he say no mre.

Then I replied him, 你们男人真肤浅，只想着牵手抱抱 lol!

Then I tell him, so u go home n think first. U now still have time to run away.

He say he ok, then I say u ltr okok, go hm delete telegram, unfollow IG and go back app unmatch is it? Then he laughed

Then I contd say, I don't want u go home n send text har. No sincerity , I wan face to face confession to make things official.

So u think it over first.

Bt I got hint him, I wan flower, dk he will get it not.

This guy is like pri sch student.

I still need step by step teach de ley.

Cause he said his first and last gf of 2yrs. During his poly days.

Is the girl like him and keep text him de.

Then he text back her one day, u like me ar?

Then they ended up tgt lol!

Then endup the girl migrate to Australia then he also busy go army, work and he don't believe in long distance relationship 

So he breakup and nv dated since then

Soo! We both are 被动的人。die lo

Then after Sunday date.

Cos the jj was late then I rly outburst and text jz Abt it since he is my first n only male confidant 

Is it guy if every meetup late, 是他不重视the meetup?

Then jz replied , depends, it might be personality. Then i Said bt he is not driving so no traffic and he normally work also nv late de. Why dates he always late. Then late jiu late, he can tell me beforehand de mah. Not like when the meeting time reaches then he text me I will be alil late sry

Is like shld have the basic respect for the person u meeting?

Then jz say make sense also. Then I replied u finally standing on my side le! U don't go defend that guy cause u are a guy also. U are my friend u need stand on my side. Lol!

Then jz as usual being funny, he text me saying that day when we walking to carpark tgt, he is standing by my side. Wah this guy rly cold as usual. Lol!

Then sun nite, he text me weird text saying actually he is not a gd texter, he always put ppl on read de. Then I say don't believe , since we had exchange text for sooo long since May somemre is daily text kind ley.

Then he say he is try to make improvements in reply text le. Then I encourage him say he rly is rly gd le. Me always selective reply and phone throw till dk where. One day reply 1 time only.

Its only after using the dating app then I started to use phone mre n replying to ppl faster.

The i ask him, did I help him a lil bit in him being a good texter? Then he said guess so. He also dk. 

I was expecting him to suan me actually. Bt he suddenly reply hen serious so make things Abit 暧昧? And he suddenly nv reply. Make me heart flutter and endup nv slp well through the nite.

Worst thing is I wakeup at 5am and went office for new hire orientation. Damn shag

And lunchtime jz suddenly text me ask him fr an impromptu dinner.

I say I wear hen lupsup tdy. Say first. The. He say tgt lupsup. Lol!

Rly is goosebumps!  On Sunday I was still telling my friends if only gt someone can come my office fetch me go dinner and fetch me go home , how good? Like always seen this in dramas, I also wanna experience 1 time.

Then suddenly jiu experience dao le.

Rly thankful for 上天,对我那么好! Thanks!

Nex one, I wanna go try sit couple seat and watch movie tgt wif a guy!

Nex one on my bucket list!

Oya frgt update on ytd jz date.

So at first told me 7pm can reach. Will let me know agn, so I slowly doing my things.

Then suddenly 6.35 he text me saying I can pack my thing slowly come down le.

Scare die me

Then I go tell him, u nex them in advance tell me ma, reach le then say吓死我!

So we went Ikea dinner, accompany him run errands for his mum, buy some frozen hotdogs and bread and currypuff home

So I thought he bought frozen things shld be need faster go home le. And it was only 8plus

End up when we walk to his car, he said so where u wan go? Or u think is late le? Your dad slp le mah? Cos I told him before I wanna avoid my dad. To avoid clashes so I normally go home when he slept le. 

So endup  we go west coast park. Stroll, play swings, sit at bench by the sea and let wind blow and let mosquito bite lol!

10plus he send me home. 

Wat I like Abt jz is he is vry observant 和细心,

First date when he send me home. I don't wanna trouble him, so I ask him drop me off the blk beside my hse. Then end up I need walk frm the nex blk to my blk and need climb a few stair steps kind. Then second date he send me home. He drive the other way. So he drive me to my blk, then before I go off, I jus say softly here better, last time u send me home the next blk there I still need climb the stairs. Then he say what u say? Then I jus shake my head and say bye to him before I head dwn his car.

Then ytd he send me home, he drive in the direction as during the first date. Then same I said u let me off the opp blk, easier fr u. 

Then he say he can drive thought the gantry and go to my blk directly de . So that I don't need take the stairs. 

Taken me by surprise Abit. Then I laughed out and say, so u actually heard and remembered? Lol!

Then he is rly thoughtful in a way to his friends that. I briefly told him I like s.h.e and before I board his car, he change the playlist to s.h.e one. I didnt realise till like after few song, I start to think eh, why all is s.h.e songs then I ask him, the. He say is their playlist. I then say bt u not their fan also. U can change to other playlist. Then he said he also got listen to a.h.e song de. Which I jus shrugged my shoulders n let him be.

Then another detail is, the first time I sat his car, he saw me sit hen straight when the seat is hen behind. Then he ask me u not uncomfortable? I say I like to sit straighter actually . Then he ask me adjust myself, I jus no need awhile ride only. Bt a tually I don't dare touch his car things. Ltr make spoilt ley? Lol!

Then this time round, he adjust in advance, I can feel it when I sit down. So I am like wah heavens treat me so good.

Let me experienced dao , kdrama scene.

Then I keep playing with my thumb the dry skin

Then he nagged at me, 不要拔你的硬皮拉

Then I replied then do wat, nth do also,看着你哦 then I turn ard n face him.

Then he LOL! And let me be le.

Bt I also want to played wif my fingers bt will try to restrain myself.

Scare ltr he nag agn

Like my bro /dad totally!

Rly wonder how long can I maintain this kind of relationship with him.

Or will it be suddenly one day, we will go back to our ordinary life's that before our path crossed in May?

Now is gg in Sep

And I am scare that I will be getting more n more greedy to be his friend and his companion in my life.

I was always telling myself that cfm nex mth jiu nth talk and won't text anymore de all this ppl I met in the dating app 

So on n off dropping alot ppl here n there.

At first is surprise wah, another mth past le, we are still texting? Shld be nex mth no more le. Nth to talk Abt anymore, I don't even talk that daily wif my realife close friends or colleagues or family

Then One mth , one mth past. Now gg towards 5th mth le. I feel myself getting mre n more greedy to keep all this friends that I made on this dating apps.

Now I am left with 4guys and 1 lady.

Will I be sad if they one day stop texting me?

So I will jus go in app and start swiping agn to make new friends?

I... Don't... Kno.w...

Bt I know the memories I made with them now are all real and rly precious to me.

I will treasure all this memories till my life ends!

Lowest weight!

Wow! Real efforts by me

Salute!

45.1kg!

D-7 to my company health screening

Hope my medical report will state 45kg teehee!