Kudos to our 9th yr friendship!

Meet up after a long time..

Strangely we can talk abt lots of things

When our personalities totally dun match

Values dun match

Ahahah

I think cos we all noe hw to respect ea other

And wan to treasure his friendship we had

As we grow older we know it is hard to kip friends by our side.

They are currently all attached

One of a 2yrs another 1yr and 1mth new fresh relationship

Wish them happiness

As it is rly hard to find one for you in this vast world

As expected 

I am the only one single ahahah

If u noe me

U will noe I am mre suited to be alone ahahah

Tears and crying

Crying and tears

Is what i realise is rly useless in life

As nth could be undone or solve with these

It is only valid when we were once a child

So i tried not to cry when i meet obstacles in life

To be honest, i nv once cried out of happiness in my life so far

But looking back...i cried countless times when i am sad...

Out of all this times, it make me realise one thing

To make your self feel better

The only thing is you yourself.

Consolation from a second third party doesnt have any effect...

The only one who can heal your heart wounds

Is yourself

So i am always the angel n devil in my heart

I always cry cry cry and i will talk to myself to self console myself that everyhing would be fine..

and those hard times always seem to pass eventually n life goes on..

Depression?

I had no time fr such thing and treatment..

For me

It is a vry straightfwd issue

You meet a hurdle 

You pass

If you finally meet one hurdle that you cant cross

Thats when u shall end your journey

And say farewell to this world

For me,

I shall always be my own self consellor till my that angel in my heart disappear..

But now even though however hard it is in my heart...

I must think of sep!! 

I still wanna noe my uni final result! 

I still wanna go to LA

Sooo!! 

At the vry least till then

I must endure!!

I am the only one who can clear all obstacle!

Hwaiting!!!!

New start

New place New challenges New encounters

A day that I wanted to erase

If there is rly a day that I wish to erase in my life so far..
It would definitely be today..
I literally messes up the whole orientation fr the new staff tdy..
Orientation was split into 3 parts
1st part collecting of doc and gg throught IT security policies, new staff handbook and memomrandum
This part was all fine, and i did pretty well
But everything started going awry one nex 2 parts..
2nd part was explaing HR policies in the company cos it was so thick in the arch file
and i was showing to the new staff seated opp of me..
so i had a hard time reading the upside dwn words..le alone explaining it
so i made many pause and my colleague step in and my mind was alr in a blank state
and in bet a few times my colleague tried to let me explain other policies bt my mouth refuse to open as my mind was blank...and my colleague had to take the baton bak n explain herself
so i just stare at the table..now thinking bak i rly wanted to hid my face in a hole at that moment..
3rd part was introducing the new staff to ea and every staff..
this part i knew i would fail..
cos rly crazy sia i see them twice nia and dun even liase wif ea n everyone in this past 1 week i join the company
how am i suppose to know their face tag wif their name n position?!
and when i intro the new staff name n position to them they shld noe the situation and intro themselves wat..still stare at me wait me intro..i am like fuck? who the hell is u?
nex time i shall skip some and jus intro as a dept.. when i am by myself during orientation
I shall improvise my style of orientation to avoid making myself look like a idiot

no choice tdy my hr colleague was wif me so i am force to folo the procedure n intro them one by one.
Never felt so embarrassed before..
Like standing ther bz lookng at my floorplan wif all the staff name and seating arrangement..

erase erase erase!!
nv want to rmb this day agn!!
these days i am getting so depressed that i find myself everyday just wanting to slp and do nth..
like i end work at 6 and reach home 7.30..
after batheing , i jus turn in the night alr

So depressing everydayy...but i tried nt to grumble toomuch to my acquaintances
cos i find myself repeating the same troubles n worries evrytime to them
and i am sure they would nt want to be taunt by me either
so i only can keep to my heart or share it here...

hiaxxx
I kip have a feeling they will dw me oso ..
too negative currently

Playnation games time

Went out wif full attendance 

This time round

Had an unexpectedly fun time

Playing board games

Till my voice is hoarse now

Cracks alot jokes thoroughout

Wif the most epic one

Is kel demostrating pinch by pinch my hands

When we nid to raise our hands to snatch the chance to be the first to answer the qiuz..

She is rly damn funny

Also the time when we nid to stand and see who is the last to stand and she was too excited standing up(when she didnt nid to in the first place) and her chair toppled over

Everyone in the cafe was like looking at her ahahah

Then dinner next at wild honey?

Dk i rmb the place name correctly or not.

Food was so so to me

Bt since gt doscount voucher at halfprice i am fine wif it

But the ambience and staff svc was worth the price

If u rly wanna find a place to chill for a long time wif friends 

I would recommemnd ther as even on a sunday nite

There isnt any queue or full hse

So isnt any pressure fr us to faster eat n leave kind of situations..

Bt meeting on a sunday is rly sian fr me ahah

Bt thnx to someone schedule ..

Yea.. no chioce ahaha

Bt all of us are working so yea..

Tgt suffer lo ahaha

Yh is flying to jap for a tuition vacation these wed for 2wks

Hope she wun be butten agn

Return safely

And for the rest of us ..

Hope everything will be fine at work

Esp fr me

Crucial wk..

The lady last day is on wednesday..

Aigioo

New Workplace

Finally after a mth

Found a job

Wif a salary much better than i expected

But has been a week since i started

As expected...i am a bit slow to adapting n learning

But must rly hang on

As these yr economy nt as gd as prev yrs

A job is hard to find let alone one wif this salary

The lady i am replacing is gg to leave nex wed

And i am so unstable still

Nex wk is gg to be crucial

N stressful for me

Bt i rly hope i can handle

As i rly nid the money now..

In case i nid extend my studies n nid pay sch fees

And also my trip to US

Is gh to be me n my bro tabs 

To treat our parents go overseas

So abit burdening for me

When all the money i earn past 2yrs are spend on my uni studies alr..

Aigoo

Bt i will try to be the hardest strawberry kid

Hwaiting

Pls be mre thick skin cal ar cal!

Sharing my thoughts these days

Everything just feels so hard

When your dont have the passion, dreams or hope for everyday..