10 Jun

Shall take a break frm my emo affairs since last week..
And talk abt mre lighthearted things this time round...
This was an ongoing thing way before manymths ago..jan i suppose ahahah..
As i am rly a free person...i find myself trying some stupid things alone sometimes..
Didnt want to say out actually..bt thought that it will be funny if i read back nex time in mre yrs to come that what ridiculous things i had done when i am still a student..
So the things goes by~~
Suddenly realised myself falling into the greed of wanting fame...
Like getting addicted to gaining followers on sns..
The me in the past is rly..hate the attention given to me on my sns...
As i feel that i cant post my selcas n life pictures wif ease..like wif so many eyes watching me on sns..
Bt at one pt...curiosity gets in me..
(Of course i am still against the idea of having stranger looking at my personal selca n pic now)
And yet i start to wonder wats so good wif having so mamy followers on sns..
So I started setting up those fansites sns accts..
At first rly amazed by the nvending gain of follwers n wif one post tat u jus upload and in seconds hundreds of likes building up...then started to enjoy it...
Bt I am rly am a 三分钟热度的人...jus after few mths am alr sick of it...
Lol...like..I feel that i had to update the acct simutaneously..like i felt a reponsibilty to update cos of all my followers ...
Rly feel like being a hard core fan rly normally are ppl wif no life...
Like all of their time is spent on sns and reading articles seeing schedule seeing other fansites pics of their idols seeing their idols schedule all the time then updating their own fansites...
Rly peifu them...no wonder i see so many fansite masters often closing dwn their accts saying they rly nid to take a break and do smth to their life..
Bt all this is part of life isnt it..memories no matter hw silly hw crazy or hw useless is it...this is all that makes our life interesting n distinct frm others isnt it?
Nowadays..i am rly spending all of my time jus doing my hobbies...non life nor money contributing hobbies yeah..lol...
Due to the facts that i cant go out..cos of the hot weather may trigger my ezcema back agn...
Neither can i find some job to do during my this long holi break...
So basically i am stranded at home...
At first feel frustrated at the waste of time...
Bt now i can only wait patiently fr my condition to improve n be stabilised...in the midst...i begin continuing my hobbies that were stopped since jan...
Cos of my studies...cos of my hobbies now...
Though they do not contribute to my bank acct ..
Bt at the vry least it make me feel that i am busily doing the things i like everyday..
N giv me no time at all to think of negative things.. at least in this 2wks..
Scared that i may becum lazy soon ahahaha...
Bt fr now i can only 按时吃药服药然候乖乖去复诊
其他的事我真的不想去想了真的。
考试成绩不好还是学业还是钱还是未来烦恼什么的。
我都想通通暂时抛开。
倩仪你可以的! 加油!