First time experience

So went to my bf's grandma wake yesterday night

First time experience such situation

So felt nervous

And scare I will say wrong or do wrong thing

First time alone attend a wake

Normally is go with a bunch of friends or family or colleagues 

And somemore I don't even know his relatives 

Rly scare and text my close friend n brother ahead

And yesterday also consult my colleagues 

Thanku for their advices 

Make me not so lost 

So after I end work

Jus went ther

There is a direct bus from my office to ther.

Request my bf to come fetch me frm the bustop to the wake.

Jus a min walk

N my heart skip a beat when he told me though today is second day

But now like still got 100ppl there

And when I reach there

The most largest wake I ever seen n attend

Spread across to the void decks across the next block then in the middle is those parking lots and all along is the wreaths 

I really shocked yi xia

Then my bf told me cause his uncle is CEO of a company so got alot other company send wreath flowers here

I am like ohh okkk

Then I jus folo him walk and intro to his relatives along the way, my girlfriend

Lol! Awkward moment

I guess this is rly a unique experience for me

He did speak to me before about his relative quite fair amount unlike mine

But after ytd night, I realise rly is whole kampung kind all his relatives

Jus his mum alr got 10siblings le

I cnnt

So I jus sat there hlp his dad fold those paper lotus,paper yuan bao for the whole night.

My bf did try to pei me, bt he need to attend to his friends and cousin and mend the guest tables and count the condolences money

We didn't managed to interact much

And even when he sent me home also hen rush cause his nex friend is reaching le and he don't wanna make ppl wait too long also.

Not used to such big families srsly 

Make me think nex time cny how sia 

If haven breakup, nex yr cny shld be need go Bai nian le ba

Crazyyy crazyyy

Then by right every Fri is our date day

Bt I jus told him Fri is need go cremation hall hen tiring, let jus skip this wk and meet nex Fri instead ba

Deep down I also need some time to cool down and think Abt future le.

Him n me rly alot of difference 

I am totally not close wif my relatives kind and appear indifferent de

Bt he is someone who vry close with all his relatives 

So I need to force myself to be like him I'm future ? 

Hiaxx