Irony

So jus 2wks ago, I am being sensitive

And lashes out at my friends and blame them fr being too busy

And left me out.

So I reflected on myself

And try to make new friends using CMB

And jus after 2 wks

I am tired from all the replies daily and

Still need go reply all the chats daily

Suddenly feel like I am now standing in my friend's position

So many chats how to find energy and time to reply every single chat simultaneously sia

I feel like throwing my phone away as it keep vibrating.

I need some lone time to settle my work and my me time after work.

Rly irony me

I feel like beating myself up.

And funniest thing is I even find the courage to real life meet them. 

Met one lady last Monday.

And this wk, Fri and sat and then nex tues

Girls n boys all

I already feel tired but I wanted to push myself to my limits 

So that I no time to pester and disturb my that grp of close friends ' life and hurt them always with my words.

I also feel bad sticking like a glue to them and hanging on to them like a koala bear

Being a burden to them when they are rly busy wif their own work ,life and families.

Main objective is finding new travel buddy.

But easier than talk.

So far, mostly is don't match with my channel kind.

Not mature enuf, 没有上进心,playing playing kind.

If not is different  interests and hobbies and travel styles.

I think I so far had connected with 20ppl? And now remaining 7active chats?

Tiringgg.

Jiayou!