Great lengths to avoid

Today is my dad birthday.

Normal people will try to rush hm for celebration

Bt fr me, it is jus a day that I can't go home

As my relationship with my dad is worst than a stranger.

Someone that I hope to forever avoid and dun see.

Once I knew he had take leave off work tdy

My plan to avoid meeting him commerces 

I wakeup at 5am. And went out at 6am before sun even rise

Then went office waste time. As I normally reach office almost 10am

Today I reach office before 8am

Then knock off 5.45pm

And went lib till 9 close doors

And stroll ard clock my steps but starting drizzling

So now I am seated at a bench under my house to past time

I can only go home at 11pm. When I make sure he is aslp and wun have to greet or talk or see or hear him.

I know there are many ppl put ther have even worst relationship bet their dads and themselves.

However, I sometimes am rly sick of such life.

4mre yrs before I reach legal age to buy my own flat and move out.

Also recently felt my life is actually quite pathetic.

Without friends and without family.

All married and all gone.

Feels like it is only me that is remaining at the same spot like 17yrs ago

Why I dun even have someone who can remain at the same spot as me.

All are so busy moving on 

I am jus like a 13yrs old kid in my heart whereby everyone is 31 already.

Lonely lonely journey.