Housewarming

Hsewarming at TMY hse this time round

Pretty and cosy I can say 

Location is quiet which I liked

Felt rly awkward when I was the first to reach

To see fmh n tmy husbands and kids are there

Kelly n yh haven't reached.

So I jus sat quietly at sofa corner and fmh n tmy got come to try get their kids to come over my side.

After 1 hr Kelly arrive wif his son only then I began to feel more at ease

If not I rly feel like a big light bulb or outsider earlier.

If it was the past me still,

I would definitely contact yh personally to make sure she reaches before I reached

So after I reach, I will faster text yh where are u? faster come! I awkward

But I refuse to do so now and anymore

As I feel like I can't depend on her forever right?

I will need to survive the awkwardness myself

So I jus text my other colleagues instead

Felt the slight change in me today.

Hearing her saying her schedule fr the yr end

I suddenly felt bad for even asking her any feel to travel overseas not few days back.

She is busy travelling overseas for work on pH and wkends

Wat am I doing when I even think of  asking her in the first place.

I think I shld rly giv up asking and go solo trips myself.

Felt i am so immature suddenly.

Thinking of gg play when my friend is busy working her butt off