Terrifying dream

 It has been many many years that I hadn't have any dreams..

Bt it was ytd nite that it happens

I dreamt receiving news that one of my longtime friend had died in a car accident

Then I was so shocked and can't accept the fact that I didn't tell my other friends or family..

And that day was a working day..so I still nid to proceed my day working..

Bt in my mind I am like self denial..

Thinking how can it be?

I had jus met her for meal last week..

I had jus message her last night..

And I refuse to believe it..how can she jus died in a car accident..

No way no way!

We still had promised each other that we will go overseas together we will do what what what activities tgt in future..

It can't be

It shldnt be..

But I dun even dare to call her or msg her..

As I am scare I wun get any replies anymore

I am afraid that my calls wun be picked up by her anymre

I am afraid that my msg wun be replied by her anymre

Afraid to accept that she is rly gone

It took the whole day till I finally accept and breakdown in tears the next morning

I went up to my mum..

Told her: mum actually ytd I was vry sad..my work was met with alot obstacles and the most sad thing that happen ytd was learning of my friend death news..

Then I cried and cried..

Then suddenly I woke up in sweat to my dead quiet and dark rm..

I stared into space awhile hard to distinguish reality and dream..

Look at my clock 6am

And after realising it is a dream..

I finally cried out loud in relief..

Then I immediately look at my phone

There is messages frm last nite frm her..

Then I cool myself down..

And ran out to my mum slowing area and wake her up..

Then I told her of my bad dream..

And I started crying agn infront of my mum..

Then my mum Abit taken aback bt tried to console me..

Now thinking back is Abit funny the situation..

My mum slowing and suddenly nid to console a crying person in the wee hours

Then she say still early ask me go bak slp cos I by rote is 7am then need to wakeup go office..

Bt I told her I dun dare slp back liai..so I jus went office early tdy..

Even now typing this down..

My tears jus flow out..

I always tot I am a person wif no feelings and wif a cold heart to everything..

Bt actually it turns out that I am still a person and with lots of tears and fears..

Luckily everything is a dream.

And I hope it will be a dream forever.

I dun wan the ppl I care about to die before me.

I hope to live happily with them and then die before them.

As the saying goes , it is harder for those being left behind.