Eye candy in workplace

Recently have a crush on one employee..

Remember my last crush was in secondary school days..10years ago..

But I am feeling quite down..

As being a HR personnel, there seems to be an imaginary border draw between other employees and our dept...due to our jobscope..

Dealing with confidential staff information and we do have some authority over the normal staff..

So I cant even approach him or like getting to know him more like a colleague..

And he is a 1yr contract staff so..yes I may not see him soon...

I wun feel so sad if he is not sitting near me..bt his seat is just right infront of my dept..

As if kip reminding me of my crush on him...

And I am introvert n shy being to begin with...

Don't even have any guy friends..

Suan le..I jus let it bury in my heart and contd be a normal fangirl..

Immersed in 暗恋 is a way long over game for my age..

Given my age now..I shld behave well and earn money for my retirement alone..

Ps: I had make a quiet,crazy promise to myself.. nex year August when he is leaving , if I am the one doing his offboarding n exit interview on his last day...I will confess my feelings to him..so even if rejected..I wun be seeing him again anyway..

Let see if I am still in this company next August..LOL 

And most importantly if my crush on him still remains 8months later.