Rollercoster mood.

Was happy the day before and the next day was so so vexed and unhappy.
Seems like there is a communication breakdown between us,courts salesperson and their sub contract delivery ppl.
It happen partly cos of me so it make me feel guilty n angry at myself.
It happen in the evening time when they delivered goods to my hm as I was the only one outside in the living rm.
One man came n ask me call town council n kept on pointing to the invoice.
It was the first time hearing such thing so I went in to where my mum n bro was and say:mum they wan us call town council fr wat sia? bt my mum n bro was bz checking the good n ignore me.
So the deliveryman left without disposing my old furniture n left it at the the stairway jus beside my door. And we didn't know until my dad came home n tell us.
Then my parents got so angry n spent the whole nite arguing wif the courts ppl.
And parent starting arguing to ea other cos we are all so pissed.
At the same time we are so worried we will get fined by the HDB side.
Rly hope they will cleared it today. If not my  mum say she is goin dwn to the courts ther n go look fr their manager later. Msg the courts ppl bt she nv even reply yet!
So my mood is rly fouled now.
Actually buying new furniture shld be a happy thing..
Bt nothing seems to go right wif this delivery this time.
And all the mre it is started by me.
Rly mad at myself fr being so ignorant n useless here.
Still say I wan live by myself n be independent.
All bullshit now! I dun even noe anything abt delivery,disposing of furniture,I dk anything!!
I am alr 21 this yr bt I only spent all this yrs studying,using com n hp.
I am rly once again not sure how to live by myself after my fam are not there fr me anymre.
I am rly starting to doubt myself even mre.
Rly couldn't even slp last nite.
AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!