I..I'm...so..lost..

I jus received news for SIT asking me go their interview ytd..

My brain is telling me to go..

Bt my heart is telling me I cant deal wif this kind of thing..

So ytd was rly hell fr me... keep talking to myself..go la..dun go la..

my heart was pumping so fast ytd that i thought i was having a heart attack or something..

I know it may sound stupid when some of u read this now..

thinking: wats this girl talking abt?! it is jus an interview rite? and she's freaking out?

Bt fr me..I noe i cant do it..i cant handle the stress n fear while being question by a panel of interviewers infront of me wif serious n strict face wif cold eyes staring at me asking questions that i am not confident in wif english..

Worst thing is there will be 2/3 interviewees sitting beside me..competing wif better answers in the 30 min of interview..

Wat if the question they direct at me is the one i am unaware of...how to deal wif it?

but the other me is like even if u avoid this interview this time round wat abt ur future interview fr work? u nid to get a hold on yourself!

it has been 1day now!

i am left wif 2 mre days to cfm wif SIT uni whether i am in fr the interview or wat..

I hav not told my family yet..I am so afraid nervous at a loss of wat to do. Goin crazy..